YOYOYOYO! (:

midyear officially started today!

english paper one gona kill me. i wrote a super lame story (i think la) and i think i'm not gona score or maybe even failing~ ): the report was... another sad case. i didnt really have time to think ALOT and all i did was mere copying from the details given and adding abit of my comments. ): paper one makes me feeel... ):

paper two was slightly better. passage A was freaking hard and.. i dont think i understand the passage well enough. passage B was better, easier to understand and WOOTS! i manage to sub a few words for summary! (dont know is it the correct meaning...) i think paper two also gona kill me la. my goal is B4 lehz, how to? ):

after that was chinese class. the teacher damn sad la.. actually only less than 10 came, in the end only 10 didnt come. B class a little bit empty.. only a few came. the teacher was so CONFUSED. and i crap alot during enrichment class. YAY! last lesson le lehz!

老师早，同学们好
我们开始上课了~
i sang this twice in chinese class, once in hawker-i'm BORED.

on the way to hawker, i was pouring water from my bottle and because of ivan, my shirt got a little bit wet. BUT... ivan.. half a shirt wet! TADA!~ elaine=winner! ^^,

had fun at hawker crapping with hpys! (=

den eat lor and home. i'm so damn high the whole day but am i really happy?
high because i wana let my stress out, laugh because i'm feeeling relax. but HAPPY? i dont know, maybe-not. once next friday starts, i'll be super quiet, because exam period and those who know me well will know.

ok, now... i gotta concentrate. like/dislike, happy/sad/angry/worry, love/hate.. just gotta be put aside. (=

random thoughts

我觉得好烦，好烦~ 试着不理会，当作什么也不知道………但真的好难。 我过不了自己的那关，我没办法不去理会别人对我的评价……只能闷在心里， 好难受！ 我知道，我永远都不会是那个被关心的， 我知道你永远不是站在我这边的……我不是傻子！但，可否替我着想一些， 试着体会我的感受？？

deeep inside my heart, i feeeel miserable. ):